08/14/2016 (Sun) 12:56:44
The authors could be nazi eating babies for all I care. Me enjoying Morenatsu benefits them in no way whatsoever, quite the opposite in fact. If they haven't grown up and are still stuck in the "glorious Japan, dirty foreigners" mentality, they would only be upset that a baka gaijin is playing their game :p
I can assure you it's not nostalgia. My entry into the world of furry VNs was Blackgate and for a while I was obsessed with it. The characters, mysteries, music and art… I was hooked, I couldn't wait to see what would happen next. Heck, I even started using the word husbando half-seriously.
And then I played Juuichi's route and everything changed. A bit of context first. I have seen my fair share of friends go through the highs and lows of relationships but I could never really relate. For you see, I never had a crush, never had my heart broken and to top it off I discovered I was a furry, uninterested in humans. I simply thought "love" was something not meant for me.
And yet here I was, bawling my eyes out. I'm not a very emotional person and I rarely shed any tears, but I could not stop crying. I finished the game and replayed it to get the best ending but I still couldn't calm down. Why? Why wouldn't the tears stop? Why was my heart racing? Why couldn't I get Juuichi out of my mind? And then it hit me: "This is.. love?!" Yes, I had somehow fallen in love with a cartoon bear. For a moment I was happy but then it all came crushing down. No matter what I do, no matter how much I struggle, I will never be able to live out my dream. I will never be able to hold Juuichi's hand, embrace him, kiss his lips or even just talk…
My heart's no longer empty, though now it's filled with pain. Still, I think it's for the best; I feel more complete as a person. Before I simply wanted to live a "comfortable life" and I had no real ambitions, goals or dreams but now I know what it means to be really passionate about something. Although everyday is a painful reminder that my biggest wish of being with Juuichi will never come true, I find solace in the fact that I at least have a wish. It probably sounds really stupid but this is how I feel :/
Morenatsu made me experience love for the first (and I assume last time) and for that I will always be grateful.